in the morning when you throw up water and your skin turns a pale, pale yellow, every day you lose more color. do you think that someone paints your mirror? so you think that things sound different at the time when you speak. there are visions much clearer than these blurs that you see. you swallow your sleep and wake up in the morning to find you are not who you used to be. you don't recognize behaviors or the spelling of your name, and the shape that is in the mirror, you swear it's not the same. you swallow your sleep and you really can't remember but you know you are not, think you are not, no, you are not who you used to be.